Friday, February 04, 2005

Happiness

Hey!

A small voice within me is asking something. It asks,
"Are you happy?"

Well, what should I say? I want to give the same old answer. Yes, of course, I am Happy as can be! But really! Am I truly happy?

So let me list down all the things that I am Happy about. And here it goes:
I am happy about myself
I am happy about life
I am happy about friends
I am happy with my marriage
I am happy that I am now ....


Hey, but isn't that a very vague list? And just 4 things to it? Ok let me think and I will write some more.

....

As I think, there are numerous things that are coming to my mind. And they start like this:

I am happy about my life but
I am happy with work but this client isn't paying the money promised for website designed.
I am happy about my food habits but I really put on weight whenever I eat a Lilttle more
I am happy about people here but they don't interact much ...
So it goes on ...

Whew! Man! I didn't know that on the back of my happy face, there was quite a bit of unhappiness.
Goodness! Isn't this that we all are going thru'? We are pretending to be happy. Underneath swirls the waves of disturbances, unhappiness, disappointment, sadness, grieve ...

We have a heart big enough to make a list of disappointments, unhappy moments, we can fill pages and pages!
Huh! Big Deal!
So can we make list over the list of happy moments every now and then? For every moment? Nah! How can we?
We are supposed to be the most miserable people in the world. Most fearful people. We are in the constant fear of unknown things that might happen to us.

Don't u see here that we are creating our own reality by being fearful? A reality of unhappiness?
I know one thing. We have the power to change it. Power to be happy no matter what may happen. Because I know that I'm not just a physical body. Underneath this body is a spark. A spark of Life, ocean of happiness and Aananda. I am going to spread happiness wherever I am. Happiness brings natural smile on the face.
You see a smile goes the longest mile! One longest mile can bring back forgotten laughter in life.

So I am gonna make a list of all the things I was and am happy about. Even though I think I was unhappy but still I felt some happiness, I am going to note it down. If I don't find one I am going to create one.
:))
love, light and aananda
Mansy

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